Interview on the Southpaw Podcast

Last week I had the pleasure of being a guest on the Southpaw podcast discussing my book, muay Thai training, mental illness, and my political trajectory. Sam is a phenomenal interviewer who opened up space for deeper reflection on my experience and managed to corral me when my flight of thought wandered a little too […]

All I Want is Freedom and Love

6/24/2021 I don’t remember much about the teacher anymore. The contours of his face and the shape of his hands have blown away like top soil in a drought, non-native particles dispersed in some dust, deposited on a windshield far from their origin. What remains of him has been distilled into a simple question, filed […]

Trauma As a Metaphor

For what the ancients called “the sins of the fathers” we today call ‘intergenerational trauma’. For what the ancients called “sin” we today call ‘epigenetics’. History matters because it’s not about the past, it’s about us. — Pongadisorn Jamerbsin Trauma is real. Ask someone with a PTSD diagnosis what it feels like when they are […]

Meritocracy Is Liberalism’s Shadow

Meritocracy is one of the great fictions of late capitalism in the US, a shiny chrome paint job obscuring the gutted interior and rusted out chassis of society. Our collective allegiance to the myth that wealth and power are doled out on the basis of individual merit, rather than inheritance, nepotism, and structural advantages, keeps […]

Deprogramming Myself

1  I am breaking apart. I made the choice to break apart. To demolish these walls, this fortress of illusory safety  that exiled me from my own heart.  I am breaking apart. Breaking down. Breaking the ties that bound me to fear, throwing off the dark coat of  control pressing down, down, down.  I am […]

Tools for Your Healing Journey

I am writing this now, one day after I decided to go full no-contact with my family of origin, because I am still so close to the feeling of “before”, which I know will fade with time. Two days ago I anonymously published a short essay detailing some of the abuse I endured throughout my […]